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You were the perfect best friend.

But in the end we both had unspoken problems,

That would forever be the death of us.

-I love you, Alexander Cole Bailey

Authors note: no matter how bad it is between you and someone you care about, you must talk to them. It’s not hard. If you miss them. If they pop into your head. Tell them. Trust me i’ve done and had some horrible things happen to me and some of those people were too important to lose. Go back to them. Friendship is important. 

The beginning of my 10th grade year I lost my best friend. He said some horrible things about me and ruined opportunities for me. I hated him for 4 months until I started intensive outpatient therapy. I learned to forgive. I rethought the situation, thought about it from his side. That made me realize he was not the only person in the wrong. I simply apologize. No snappy comments. No walls. Completely vulnerable. And just like that i was able to call him my best friend again. 

Soon after that I got into an argument with my other guy best friend. I’m not going to go into very much detail about this one. But i said some fucked up things. We didnt talk for 2 months. I texted him apologizing and he did the same. At this point we still weren’t close friends. One night I got a random burst of courage. It was around 3 am but i knew that boy never sleeps. I sent him about 10 snap videos of me rambling about how i miss him and all that. We had an honest conversation and then we were back to normal. 

Both of these boys mean so much to me. They are friends I can 100 percent trust. And it’s a miracle that they’ve actually stuck around with me. I’m not saying i want you to forgive the asshole who cheated on you. I’m just asking you to give the good ones a second chance.